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Hello, friends!

Some of you know me on a day to day basis, some of you don’t. Some of the things that I am going to tell you about myself I never wanted to admit to anyone. I have been brought my to my knees a lot lately and have been humbled a lot in the past few months. I realize now in my life that God never stops humbling us.

I got saved when I was 10 at a church camp that I went to through the Prospect Assembly of God. It was then that God told me that I was to be a missionary. I was pretty off and on with God for years after that. By the age of 14 I had forgotten about my calling and didn’t actually care anymore. I continued to not care for about 5 years after that. I started drinking and using marijuana when I was 14. I figured that that was all I was going to get into. I was wrong. By the age of 17 I was using ecstasy, cocaine and opiates. Then I ended up getting arrested for DUII. The drugs took over my mind and my life. I went through 3 months of drug and alcohol rehab. The moment I graduated from it I started using again. My drug use continued to get worse and worse as time went by. I didn’t know how to cope with my emotions and choices in life. I used drugs to escape my life, and to hide my emotions. At some point I realized what the drugs were doing to me. My mind and my body spiraled down, but I had no outlet other than drugs, or so I thought. God was always there in the back of my mind, knocking on my door. I just tried to shut Him out. But we know that NEVER works. I met some guys. Who knew some guys. Soon there after I was playing middle man in a game of cocaine dealing. Spending all my money on it and spending other peoples money on it. The thoughts in my head told me, “You could use that money on food, but if you go buy that other gram of coke, you won’t want to eat.” So that’s what I listened to for months! It disgusts me to this day to think about what I did to myself.

One day I met someone that showed me Gods love without even knowing that that’s what I was seeing. I knew him for about a week, and asked myself, ‘why do I want to be a better and different person when I am around him’? Then one day he told me about the internship that he was in at a church in Medford. It was at that point that I realized that God was speaking to me, through him. Though it dawned on me that night, I still continued to go get some opiates. On the way there I asked a friend, ‘Why am I doing this?  I don’t even want it?’ “You’re addicted that’s why!”. I did 2 times as much as I normally do in half the time. One half hour later I started throwing up, and I continued to throw up for 6 hours straight. In the middle of my throwing up I broke down to one of my friends. I let out how I felt about my drug use, how much I hated it, how I knew that I was killing myself and I didn’t want to but didn’t know how to stop. It was never my body that wanted drugs all the time it was my mind. I didn’t want to think. I didn’t want to feel anything. I just wanted to go away from everything and everyone that I knew and start over. That was the last night I did drugs.

The next day in the middle of work I called my grandma. She lives in Florence, Or. I told her all the things that I was doing and how I was killing my self. I told her that I needed to leave and start over. She talked to my mom, and I talked to my mom and later that day we decided that I was moving to Florence to live with my Grandma. I stayed in Medford making arrangements and packing and saying my good-byes. I stayed sober that whole month. April 27th I went on my merry little way to Florence.

My relationship with God began to grow. One day He told me to get on the internet and go look at YWAM (a discipleship training school). I found a YWAM based in Tampa, Fl. Its a mobile DTS. That means that I will be in Tampa for 2 weeks. Then in places like New York, Chicago, Las Vegas, and San Francisco. I will be learning about God and His love and loving other people and how to show them the way God loves them over the course of 12 weeks. The next 7 weeks I will be in New Zealand on an outreach mission.

So here’s the clincher in the plan. I have to be in Florida on the 19th of this month. By the 21st I have to have $2,800.00 for the first phase. That money will covers the travel expenses, the food and the lodging for the first 12 weeks. Then by the second week in August I have to have another $1,500.00 to book the ticket to New Zealand, and by October 14th I have to have another $1,300.00 for the lodging, travel and food in New Zealand. That is a grand total of $5,600.00. It seems like a lot of money to me seeing as I have 9 days until I go and I am starting today the 10th with $0.00 but it is just pocket change to God. I am asking that if you have the means and a willing heart, for a little help. What ever you want to give is blessed and appreciated. By helping me do something wonderful with my life you would ultimately be reaching so many more people that you or I could ever imagine.

I have a bank account set up for my funds at Washington Mutual. If you want to help me fulfill Gods plan for my life you can either make a cash deposit to bank account #4011159111 To Kaitlynn Govenor. Or a check can be made out to me Kaitlynn Govenor, and deposited into that bank account

If anyone has any questions or encouraging words. My e-mail address is The_Dreams_We_Live@live.com. Here is the site with more info on the YWAM that I will be attending by the grace of God, http://www.ywamtampa.com/index.html. On the right hand side there will be a news section, click the City2City DTS link thank will tell a bit about it!

I thank you so very much for your time and support. God Bless you.